congrats laine!!

went to meet elaine this morning.. she was having her driving test.. before reaching CDC, she called me telling me she finished her test... which was like so super fast.. it takes her barely less than 40 mins? ard there... cool loh... but it was because the tester feel that there is a jam further up front and thus asked her to change route!!! if not so fast???? u are blessed ah.... :P haha... and in the end............... she PASSED!!!! so happy for her... if not.. not only must she retake.. she must reapply PDL... and waste a few hundred bucks again... know she wont mind the $$ but is the time she dun wanna waste! good for ya!!!

lunch time.. meet up with zhe yar and some other church friends.. jie ying... trixie, fungwee, sis and friends... they just finished their Olevel practical exam... heard from them they had some careless mistakes liao... dun worry peeps... must cont to jia you for written papers!!!

Dear Lord,
i thank You for answering my prayers... even though i said it in a half- asleep state but Lord, You still answered them.. i thank You Lord for seeing elaine and my sis and friends through their test and exam...i thank You Lord for the peace upon them.. i cont to pray for ppl ard me having their exams.. be it the pri sch students, o level students, A level students,poly students, uni students and all those having exams ard the corner that Lord, You grant them discipline and concentration to study... thank You Lord Jesus... Lord, i also would like to pray for the release of promos results for those JC1.. pray for yinting, qi mei, sim yen, wen qi that Lord, You will grant them the results they deserved and pray that Lord Your comfort will be with them.. In Jesus's most precious name i pray, AMEN!

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did this after 1 am this morning.. but too tire/ lazy to switch on com to type my thots...

9th dayQT:
WHAT MAKES GOD SMILE???
GOD SMILES WHEN....
-we love Him supremely
-we obey Him wholeheartedly
-we praise and thank Him continually
-we use our abilities

*Trusting God completely means having faith that He knows what is best for your life.

"The Lord is pleased with those who worship Him and trust His love." - Psalm 147:11
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10th day QT: heart of worship = surrendering to God.. allow God to take control of our life.. let Him have assess to the driver's seat tat drive our life..Jesus is an example of surrendering His life to God.. like what He prayed before His crucifixion, allowing God to complete His purpose in Jesus's life.. it is not cannot be done.. because Jesus came down as human form and led an example of surrendering His life to God.. in our life when we surrender our lives to Him, we should trust God with all our heart and let Him have control of our lives..we should not let our own desires rule over God's desires for us!

*surrender is not the nest way to live; it is the ONLY way to live. nothing else works.

"surrender your whole being to Him to be used for righteous purpose." -Romans 6:13b

planned for God's purpose

8th day QT: it says bringing pleasure to God is called "worship" and anything we do that bring pleasure to God.. putting a smiley face on Him is an act of worship!
worship is far more than music.. it is doing things that pleases God.. so it is actually a misunderstanding usage when we say we are having praise and worship before sermon.... (now then i realised!)... (guess most of us have the same prob!):P

and worship is not about our benefit and neither is it a part of life... rather it is our life!..
i prefer to sing prasies to Him as a form of worship but we are told to do EVERYTHING as though doing it for Jesus.. and that is acts of worship too! so besides enjoying singing to Him.. we should do every little thing as though for Him!

once in BS.. we mentioned abt WWJD aka What Would Jesus DO?.. it is good when we meet trials of any kind and the first thing to think of is WWJD! and we will react to the situation as though Jesus would react to! this deeply rooted in me after the BS.. so often bring up this qns (WWJD?) and it will be rooted in yours too! indeed this way help us to not do things out of our own human nature but rather to think and do it in a way bringing glory to HIM!...

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today didnt really had a good mood.. but guess is just me not to show my mood easily to spoil others thus.. tried to forget abt it as though it nv happened....

today went to watch a movie with odie, juli, louie and sam.. called a few more to come like jac, butcher and pork but they all busy studying... so we went to watch "White Chicks".. haha.. the show was so funny... we simply laughed our heads off... (a good way to lighten mood huh... not bad lah)...

and went for a haircut today.... everytime when tok abt haircut, surely girls will be concern abt how to cut it so that it will not be too difficult when comes to wearing of GB uniform... haha... quite true... but i realised that it wasnt that difficult afterall! cos since is all in the cap... can simply tie the best u can then the rest will have to use hairpins loh... after much discussions... the thot of shaving bald came out suddenly and it was hilarious to imagine... well.. aniwae is impossible... anyone wanna try???

and my hair is still remain the same length just that my fringe is abit shorter and i layered it so it is much thinner... the hairdresser say my hair very nice.. cos is natural straight!!!(dun jealous!!!!!!! :) we went to this hair salon that offer express haircut for 10 mins... cant remember its name... dun think is QB hse... well.. that dun matter.. matters is she say my hair is nice... she said," very xie mu!"... well... i just laughed and said,"no lah... okie lah" oops..... haha.... but overall it seems like i nv cut at all... hai.... nvm... is the feeling that counts.... ya... juli cut together with me and the moment she step out she said,"my head......... seems lighter!!!" :)

after that we parted to go home... however i walked ard alone... dunno why... just dun feel like going home... and know wad... when i feel sad, i will have the tendency to spend $$.... and as i expected... today i walked ard the whole of TM and CS.. bought bro an OP tee that cost $15 and i bought a skirt from OP thta cost $36.... m not very rich... but is just a letout way... very bad i know... luckily the skirt is bought for uncle's ROM ceremony.... if not will feel as though i m such a spoilt brat!!!... die le... this habit must change!!! actually thot of a way.. will use a piggy bank.. and whenever i m sad i will put in money!!!! money should spend wisely... aiya... any better ideas??? thot of collecting the money then bring to church as tithes de... any suggestions??? aniwae meanwhile.... waiting for a piggy bank............................................ haha... guilty for today!!!!

the reason for everything..

7th day QT: The Lord has made everything for His own purposes. - Proverbs 16:4

the reason for everything that exists is for God's glory! everything that is created by Him reflects His glory..

how to bring glory to GOd?
- worship Him
-loving other believers
-becoming like Christ
-serving others with our gifts
-telling others abt Him

It's all about HIM!

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today went to ntu to find ah hui... haha... was late so didnt ask her fetch me but went to her hall by myself! so smart huh... only went like a few times.. somemore so long ago.... then her parent came with snowy... haha... keep licking me... all over my arms... missed him!... haha...

then at night had bible study... today was quite normal... except swee ming gonna leave this grp for her calling at navigators... sad but glad she is still doing God's work!!! keeping her in prayer!

"life is a temporary assignment"....?

5th day QT: as above.. is what i read today...to me it seems not easy to treat this earth as though we are just 'visitors' or 'foreigners'.... we are not suppose to feel attached to this earth...(Lord, teach me how!) indeed, in the Lord's eyes, God's goal for us is not the material posessions we have.. not the no. of friends we have, not the no. of ppl we help... all He wants is us to serve FAITHFULLY and expecting our promised reward in eternity!

"when life gets tough, when you're overwhelmed with doubt, or when you wonder if living for Christ is worth the effort, remember that you are not home yet. At death you won't leave home ---- you'll go home."

"So fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal." - 2 Corinthians 4:18

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hmm... today went down to ms gan's office to have lunch with her and elisa... handed in Thai trip consent form too... handed in aka confirmed is only 4 ppl... volunteered to help ms gan call up the Edusave to check all girls account and found out that alot of them had alot of $$ in it... especially the sec4s... wasted they not gonna go...as the edusave will transfered to CPF which is like how old then will get leh... haha... mine only $8++... cant even pay for anything! :P this shows i make good use and full use of my edusave! :p really hope more girls can join the team embark on the Thai trip and hopefully all the 'flu-ssss' will stop by then... :)

elaine finally understand why i dun encourage her to stop her driving lesson for 2 whole months!!! now she is lost and forgot all!!! goodness... and she gonna take her TP test on 18th oct!!! haha... (laine, must pray hard u remember all ah) tml will be her last actual lesson!!! oh dear... see lah.. always soooo last min... but hope u learn from this!! will keep u in prayer de.. hopefully u pass sia.. if not must pay again and renew ya PDL... that's not the crucial thing lah.. but is the time.. somemore CDC so far for u leh.. dun worry... i bring banner on mon to cheer u on (-_-''' pai seh! but force to!)... jia you ba! i will keep my promise to accompany u lah.. but jk abt the banner k... is too 'maluation' so ya... :) jia you! and pray that u wont get back the smae instructor!!! really pity u... be careful k!!!


Dear Lord,
i pray for the Thai trip that Lord, more sponsors can come in and give generously.. pray that Lord, that the parents of the girls will soften their hearts when the girls pursuade them further.. Lord also pray that the 'flu's diease will cease soon.. and protect the ppl there from all these.. thank you Lord! Lord i also would like to pray for elaine that Lord she will make full use of tml's lesson, learning all she forgotten.. pray that Lord You will protect her from meeting the same instructor.. and pray that she will be able to handle the situations if she meet him again.. Lord pray that You bless her a safe lesson and also

"life is a temporary assignment"....?

5th day QT: as above.. is what i read today...to me it seems not easy to treat this earth as though we are just 'visitors' or 'foreigners'.... we are not suppose to feel attached to this earth...(Lord, teach me how!) indeed, in the Lord's eyes, God's goal for us is not the material posessions we have.. not the no. of friends we have, not the no. of ppl we help... all He wants is us to serve FAITHFULLY and expecting our promised reward in eternity!

"when life gets tough, when you're overwhelmed with doubt, or when you wonder if living for Christ is worth the effort, remember that you are not home yet. At death you won't leave home ---- you'll go home."

"So fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal." - 2 Corinthians 4:18

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hmm... today went down to ms gan's office to have lunch with her and elisa... handed in Thai trip consent form too... handed in aka confirmed is only 4 ppl... volunteered to help ms gan call up the Edusave to check all girls account and found out that alot of them had alot of $$ in it... especially the sec4s... wasted they not gonna go...as the edusave will transfered to CPF which is like how old then will get leh... haha... mine only $8++... cant even pay for anything! :P this shows i make good use and full use of my edusave! :p really hope more girls can join the team embark on the Thai trip and hopefully all the 'flu-ssss' will stop by then... :)

elaine finally understand why i dun encourage her to stop her driving lesson for 2 whole months!!! now she is lost and forgot all!!! goodness... and she gonna take her TP test on 18th oct!!! haha... (laine, must pray hard u remember all ah) tml will be her last actual lesson!!! oh dear... see lah.. always soooo last min... but hope u learn from this!! will keep u in prayer de.. hopefully u pass sia.. if not must pay again and renew ya PDL... that's not the crucial thing lah.. but is the time.. somemore CDC so far for u leh.. dun worry... i bring banner on mon to cheer u on (-_-''' pai seh! but force to!)... jia you ba! i will keep my promise to accompany u lah.. but jk abt the banner k... is too 'maluation' so ya... :) jia you! and pray that u wont get back the same instructor!!! really pity u... be careful k!!!


Dear Lord,
i pray for the Thai trip that Lord, more sponsors can come in and give generously.. pray that Lord, that the parents of the girls will soften their hearts when the girls pursuade them further.. Lord also pray that the 'flu's diease will cease soon.. and protect the ppl there from all these.. thank you Lord! Lord i also would like to pray for elaine that Lord she will make full use of tml's lesson, learning all she forgotten.. pray that Lord You will protect her from meeting the same instructor.. and pray that she will be able to handle the situations if she meet him again.. Lord pray that You bless her a safe lesson and also be with her.. pray also for her TP test that Lord, YOu will be with her that day and send Your peace upon her heart! in Jesus's most precious name i pray, AMEN!

what is life to you?

5th day QT: the book says life is a test, life is a trust and life is a temporary assignment.. God give us little trials to test us to develop us into what He want us to be...(reminded me of "The Potter's Hand" song). while reflecting this verse came into my mind, James 1:2-4.. it tells us that we are to consider it joy when we face trials of many kinds cos we will develop perseverance... and life is a trust because at the end, we will be evaluated and thus rewarded according to how we handle what God has entrusted us... which is every little thing that we face each day!

hmmm... nothing special abt today except that grandma(dad's side) is sick and lost her voice... my mom is going-to-be sick... hai... like it came first from me... and now everyone kana... one by one.. oops... sorry.... :p
slept late last night... at 3 am... and thot of waking up at 12+pm or 1pm... but thanks to odie(auddie).... called at 11am after her last paper!!!! nv brush my teeth and tok to her 4 half an hr(eeeeee) haha....

suddenly miss sch times... sec sch... in SHSS.... and also TPJC lah... haha... just miss wearing uniform... miss the GB times during sec yrs and squash in JC... hao huai nian wor!!! (sob sob)
when i was in pri sch... at the last day of my pri yrs... i cried at home... missed the pri sch times and it took me some time to adapt to the fact that i m in sec sch!! so emotional and sentimental.. buay tahan myself sia... told carol(pri best fren) and she said,"HUH!!!"... thanks huh....

faith..

today is great.. catch up with sim yen and suling... then went to shop around to look for stuff... dunno why feel like spending and i spent >$50 today excluding meal.... gosh... felt guilty.. bought a skirt, a shirt and a slip on shoe(seems like slipper but more formal)... but mom didnt nag... haha... so weird.. not herself today... she just say is okie lah.. anyway sch starting also.. but abit too early hor??? -_-'''

4th day QT: now the life on earth is just a preparation stage for us before we enter into eternity.. we are all made to last for eternity.. thus now wad we go through is a small parenthesis in eternity.. it teaches me that nothing comes above God... Yes! and He is our priority.. after readin this... it gives me the confident to present God's eternity for us to my parent...

"..faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." -Hebrews 11:1

was reading up Hebrews the night be4 and find this verse that encourages me alot... have FAITH!

"If we died with Him, we will also live with Him;
if we endure, we will also reign with Him.
If we disown Him, He will also disown us;
if we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for He cannot disown himself."
-2 Timothy 2:11-13

purpose in life?!?!

yesterday in church, during kaleo, ms chiam shared abt her work in A&G Home.. was glad that she shared, cos it seems like God answering my qns.. her illustrations of her advice given to her gals seems so familiar to me, is like telling someone the right path but yet the person still chose to dig a hole infront and jump in... the point is not to give up on them even if they keep digging a hole and jump in....

still feel abit hurt over certain matters... but somehow today God seems to teach me something... i dunno how this is going to end.. it might be just like this forever but really dun like the feeling of being misunderstooded... shall not elaborate... this few days been on God's Word thus the hurt seems to be reducing till i did something yesterday...

whenever i enter my sistar's room... this verse always catches my attention..
"I lift up my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from? my help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." - Psalm 121:1-2

3rd day QT: Everyone's life is driven by something... i guess mine is driven by the need of approval... i try to please ppl around me too much...(even when they expected too much, sometimes i still give in thus bringing unnecessary hurt to myself!) through the purpose driven life book, i learnt things... am determined that the Lord will teach me great things!

5 great benefits of purposed driven living:
1) knowing your purpose gives meaning to your life
2) knowing your purpose simplifies your life
3) knowing your purpose focuses your life
4) knowing your purpose motivates your life
5) knowing your purpose prepares you for eternity

"You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in You." - Isaiah 26:3

finally.....

after a few days of asking dad if he allow me to go for thai trip... and FINALLY.........
he said OKAY!... wasnt easy for him to permit me cos he is worried abt my sch... cos uni gonna start soon and what if things are left unsettled?? however i assured him that i will settle it be4 i go... guess the next thing he is worried abt will be the birdflu!.... told him that if anything crops up last minute, the trip will be cancelled.... so he dont really need to worry much... somemore got God by our side!!!!

of cos the last thing is the issue of money... as i need to pay 1st sem fees soon... so might be abit tight to fork out $800 for my trip... hopefully ms gan is successful in getting sponsors!!! pray for us!!!!! thanks.... :p

really thanks daddy for supporting me... though he didnt actually want me to go... he did raised his voice when i asked to go... he feel that there might be lotsa things to settle... when i finally asked again.. he did seriously talk to me abt it be4 he finally nod... understand that he had my interest at heart... thanks daddy... muacks!... huggs!... somemore he sick... bro too.. guess is by me... cos started from me then to my dad and bro!... oops... keeping them in prayers...

God is love

Day 2 QT: i was created by GOd who had me in His mind long be4 i was born..He knew me inside and outside.. specially created for His purpose.. living for Him and fulfilling the purpose He had for me is the meaning of life...

You are who you are for a reason.
You'e part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what He wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones He chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-design with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not so easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into His likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!

Russell Kelfer

nice poem... was sharing with pork abt this book and she came up with an illustrations...
dying is like going HOME to the Lord.. though sometimes in life is tough, we may just ask the Lord to take us home.. back to where we should be.. however.. we have yet to complete the task He want us to do and we have yet to fulfill the purpose of life.. how can we actually ask Him to bring us home? so we should fulfill the plans He has for us... and when our work is done, He will call us Home.......

"I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born." -Isaiah44:2
this verse is so comforting.....

this few days been pondering with things... however.. even though with a heavy mind... i feel that i am even more than usual hunger for God's Word... :P

cool...

bought THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE book today.. ya.. finally.... decided to buy....

was on 1st day.. particularly this caught my attention, the wisest philosopher can speculate abt the meaning of life but he also does it by guessing.. no one knows the purpose of life except the creator who is God Himself!

For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible abd invisible,... everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him. - Colossians 1:16

sick le

guess i caught a cold le.. was sneezing the past nights..

today had a terrible fright: the ride to CGH was alright... all was fine until on the way home.. hai... went into this lane that is meant only for straight way but this funny guy infront(a lorry) decided to turn right!! i was like... *RIGHT!!*... not frustrated but is so irresponsible!! then by the time i managed to cross the white line, it was like arrows for turning!!! of cos my car was out of the way, still ppl nv let me... they continued their path!! but i m blocking the car going horizontally!! so gonna finish my path no matter wad!!!but nobody gonna let..then a motorcyclist nearly dashed into the car but he brake in time.. *sometimes wonder why ppl wont let???* so scary.. apparently they didnt bother abt my car and just want to go their path... *sad..* learnt a lesson: ON ROADS, BE KIND TO PPL WHEN THEY NEED A HELPING HAND!!! RUSHING THEM WONT SOLVE THE PROB!! WILL JUST INTIMIDATE THEM!!!
from now onwards, i m going to be a kind soul on road, giving way when ppl need... unlike today.. so sad.. nobody let at all..... :<

today at CGH, grandma did an unltrasound scan... doc say found something somewhere near the throat area.. so still dunno wad isit... waiting for report on 19th oct.. pls pray for my grandma!! so shocked when i heard.. hopefully it can be removed via operation...

Dear Lord,
i thank you for the lesson learnt today.. Lord, you know the worries i have in mind, today alot of things being thru my mind.. but most importantly is my grandma. she is the only one on my mind beside anything else.. i pray that Lord, the thing on her throat area is something minor.. pray that You will send Your healing hand upon her.. Lord, i pray that YOu will continue to watch over her and keep her healthy! in Jesus's name i pray, AMEN!

sick

m down with cold i think... dunno... last night been waking up.. and sneezing... or too many ppl missing??? :P now having some difficulties to talk and breath through mouth together... confirmed cold le lah... hai... dun like this cos means i cannot smell anything.... hai.... food all will taste the same to me!!!!

yeah.. tml got a chance to drive grandma to check up at CGH.. using uncle's car!!! haha... first time i gonna drive so far out with an auto car... very *mountain-turtle* isit?? being used to dad's suzuki mah...

today went to church... and pastor andrew tok abt having more ppl to join the music ministry... somehow... reminded of wad butcher and i tok abt days ago... told butcher abt worship... didnt know we been thinking alike! GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE... :P

counting down the days to being tight down with sch work again... excited but yet scared... hai... looking at how jas struggling.... i understand aiai!!! praying for u... but kinda excited cos alot of frens are there....

been thinking abt this song, 'Thank You for loving me'... *touched* love DADDY so much!

days

hasnt been updating...
this week was busy with tutioning and stuff... wanted so much a day to be at home just sit down and not doing anything... hasnt been feeling good the previous days... dunno why also...

today went to malaysia... went to visit my cousins... so nice... really great to see them again and hugging them!!! miss u all soooo much.. kids r sooo cute.... made a new spec.. gee.. and had alot of fun with cousins and all! thank God that my cousins will be coming out of malaysia to study.. guess they r PR? not too sure... and my grandaunt's bungalow in malaysia is selling... hai... no more liao... but she gonna get a condo instead... smart of her to buy in malaysia.. oops... but so mah fan.. she gonna travel in and out of malaysia... aniwae i still can have fun so doesnt matter me!

came back... did something that is so not me... hai... feel sad... but....
talked to elisa aka butcher on msn... missed her so much.... thanks for bearing me ya? btw my MSN is working le!!! hopefully the exams will end fast for all my frens!

Dear Lord, i thank you for exams.. i pray that You will help those involved to be more discipline and determination in their revision. also during their preparation that they will not forget You too.. pray that Your love will continue to flow in them and that your peace will follow them throughout the whole exam period.. i ask and pray all these in Jesus's most precious name, AMEN!