guilty-ness

today felt so guilty.. i dunno.. feel so greatly responsible for so many things...
sometimes when fingers start to point at u, u will be qnsing yourself, What went wrong? though on appearance and considering many things, it seems not really within my control, but it is still a great responsibility on me.. sometimes i will ask myself, why do i want to walk this path? is it a path Daddy wants me to walk? maybe i nv carry this burden to Him, but always carrying it myself.. this time, i really knelt down in prayers... crying to Him...

-Happy New Year to all-

today went 3 hses for visiting.. xiao zhu's, butcher's and raq.. quite fun.. had alot of fun time in raq's hse trying to play with her 2 yrs old sis... pork, xiao hua, juli, odie were there too! and odie was so excited abt the present raq gave for her coming bdae.. amusing how this gal actually yearn to see but yet keep to the promise of not opening it till e day..